a poem by Hafiz

The Seed Cracked Open

It used to be
That when I would wake in the morning
I could with confidence say,
What am 'I' going to
Do?

That was before the seed
Cracked open.

Now Hafiz is certain:

There are two of us housed
In this body,

Doing the shopping together in the market and
Tickling each other
While fixing the evening's food.

Now when I awake
All the internal instruments play the same music:

"God, what love-mischief can 'We' do
For the world
Today?"

crawling quickly

I just realized I was putting a week behind up on the "babers development" tab. So, I have completed 34 weeks and now I am in my 35th week! Wow- it seems like its going fast now. Just next month we'll have a baby! It seems pretty surreal to think about it that way. We can't wait to find out whether it is a girl or boy- we have had about half of the guessers say one and half say the other. I am just so excited to see who has been in there bumping around this whole time.

Speaking of bumping around, our little one has not been much of a kicker- they certainly move around at different times throughout the day, but much more rolling and stretching. Lots of other pregos I have met discuss the circus acts going on within their abdomens. I started to think something might be wrong. But then I heard that often the "in womb" temperament translates to out of the womb. The baby that kept you up all night pregnant, keeps you up all night when they are born. Maybe, my midwife proposed, its just more of a buddha baby. Now, wouldn't that be nice?- a relaxed, calm, introspective little human to take care of. I am just not so sure how Eric and I would have created that. Maybe another reason they are called little miracles...

photo from Brenna Giannini- http://www.gianniniphotography.com/

10 reasons bedrest rocks

10- I can wear comfy pants all day long
9- not feeling guilty about reading silly magazines
8- doing minimal work to make my meals and then not having to clean up (thanks babe)
7- I am just not allowed to do strenuous exercise
6- getting to watch cats sleep- kind of like paint drying but a little more meditative
5- netflix (thanks mom)
4- loads of time to contemplate being a parent, read books, feel prepared
3- always being able to say "while you're up..." (thanks again babe)
2- really feeling very little responsibility/pressure to do anything- when does that ever happen?
1- a little healthly person will be the end accomplishment!