required rest...

Shortly after returning from the coast, I got news about some blood tests and was put on bedrest. "Bedrest!?" was my reaction, too. I'd heard of people doing such a thing, but mostly in old books. I had no idea how common of a prescription it is today. In my case I am having signs of preeclampsia, which happens to 1/20 pregnant women, usually at the end of their third trimester. For me it started to happen a little earlier- 29 weeks to be precise- and so the most effective thing to do is bedrest. Preeclampsia is basically (from my understanding) a condition of vascular constriction, resulting in less flow of blood and therefore oxygen and nutrients. No one knows for sure what causes it. The idea behind the bedrest, specifically laying on the left side, gives the best perfusion to your liver, kidneys, heart, placenta, and therefore baby. And thus far the baby is doing just fine- it has all the right size parts and its own blood flow is good. So hopefully bed rest will keep everything moving along just swimmingly (I picture the little person swimming in there).
"What is bedrest?" you may wonder. Well, it ranges from people actually using a bedpan to being told to lie down a couple hours a day. I have a modified bedrest, where I can sit up to eat, and get up to shower and do one thing a day not lying down for 1-2 hours. At first this was a horrifying thought. It means not going to school, or work, or even real exercising. (My doc said I could walk, but think more of "strolling" and that would count as my activity for the day) Ay, ay, ay! Ok, I admit the thought of having to do nothing is appealing, until you are actually doing... nothing.
The first week was hard, just continually restraining myself to not sneak in doing something on a trip to the bathroom. Picking out my one task or activity seemed like punishment. I just felt well, restless.
But now, the end of my second week, some things have changed. I go through phases but in general feel more accepting, and even thankful to have all this time. It is like my mind has started to slow to meet my body. All the million things I would like to do are still there, however they are not screaming and running around in front of my face. It's almost as if I am just a tiny bit more mindful, and now that's a gift.
One fun thing I have done is knit this little hat. I made one for Ella, my neice, when she was born and now her cousin will have one too. I like that the top looks like a belly button, the babers source of nourishment! Oh, and the lil' bump has turned into a big bump-more pics soon.